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OH MY GOD!!!!!


I am staying away from drama. Drama has a way of showing up in my life. Allow me to make it clear to the world. I DO NOT WANT DRAMA. I have had plenty of drama in my life and I am not in dire need by any means. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE world, god, cosmos, or whatever allow me this bit of sanity.

I am not in need of help. I am helping myself right now and I think that that is the best thing for my sanity right now. But if I do need help, I am aware of how to help myself out and who and where to go to. So people of the earth that care about me need not be worried.

Am I rambling yet? I don't think so. To the outside world its rambling to me it makes perfect sense. I need this bit of venting even if its on a stupid non-private blog.

And with that said, I have one more thing to explain to the world. I am who I am, if you aren't happy with who I am than leave me the fuck alone. Don't mess with me if you don't like me. I am sick and tired of having to explain to the world who I am and why I am the way I am. I am allowing myself to be the person that I am. If I am angry, nasty, and just plain mean, than deal with it... Or just write me off as a bitch. I don't care just leave me alone and don't fuck with me. I want to be doing some thing for me right now. And yes I do have a lot of anger on my hands right now. I just want to deal with it my way. That is one reason why I am also shying away from a lot of people. I don't want them to have to deal with my anger issues. With my self esteem issues. Im just an angry little bitch who is trying to find a way out of her handmade hell.

Can I help it if I am totally different and insane in the membrane? I am trying to help it but for the most part I am just going to deal with it. Is this stress talking? Probablly!!!!!!

Ileana
P.S. Sorry if you get offended reading this... But I just had to get these few words off my chest.

Silly Pits

Welcome to Silly Pits.

ELOQOOANT

TIRED. EXHAUSTED. CONFUSED AS HELL.

Disappointing

The world constantly has ways of disappointing me. Today is one of those days. I dunno I feel like the world is crap and full of evil assholes who want nothing more than be better than me or anybody else they can get their hands on. I dunno what to do or who to be. I hate feeling like this. I feel like no matter how much I change and no matter what I do. I still end up looking like a know it all little bitch.

And what if I am a know it all bitch. Its better than being a lazy thyroidless ass. At least I try to be friendly. So booya to all the assholes out there. That's right I am mad and I am not going to take it just because you think it is in your right to dish it out.

SUMMER DAYS(how can you tell its summer):

1. You hear children outside running.
2. While the grocery store you see little girls running around in their bathing suits, eating ice cream, and half that ice cream is on their face.
3. While passing Home Town Buffet(the world's largest lard infused fast food place), you see a bus load of Amish people coming out of said restaurant.(also an indicator that it's too damn hot outside)

At this point I am totally confused, angry and just feeling like shit in general.


Ileana