Gica

Thursday, April 26, 2007

opportunity

Over the last week or so my boss has managed to do a 360 on me leave me flat on my ass. Lately she has decided she could use me at another group home. And the amount of compliments I have gotten on from her, a woman who does not really dish out compliments, have been a bit overwhelming. I am doing a good job. GASP... I have grown since I have started working at my current company(but in all honesty I have fucked up sooooooooooo many times) but yet I am trusted by my boss. GASP... All of a sudden people are amazed by me. GASP...

And to my sister if you are reading this.... Where are you how can I reach you? The easiest way? Messenger?

Friday, April 20, 2007

OH JEZUS/Stream of Consciousness

I need all the luck in the world. Class this summer.

Thinking of my sister and her moving. I was wondering if she stressed. Her friend Francesca said no.

I am thinking of a partner.

What happens when you do everything you are supposed to do. Can you tell you are finally mature?

Is shopping evil? Even if its about taking care of me? Does it cound if I feel bad shopping?

Uggghhhhhh, I think I ate too much at dinner. MUST EXERCISE

I went rollerblading...

I am getting better at rollerblading... Practicing...


Section ID
Title
Credit
Start Date
End Date
Days
Start Time
Stop Time
Building
Room
MAT 095-002
BEGINNING ALGEBRA
5.0
6/11/2007
8/2/2007
MTWR
10:00 AM
12:20 PM
M
140

when do i get to move up in the world

restaurant

food

sex

relationship

fear

love

vegan food

work

people with problems

Thursday, April 05, 2007

Obsolete

Its funny how one becomes obsolete in some one elses eyes. The drop of a hat you are no longer important. People think I am blind. People probably think I don't catch on. But I do. Its true that I can be very air headed and forget little things. But when it comes to people, I have a very honed skill. Lately I have realized how little it means for people to have other people in their lives. I hate that, that is so very much like using somebody. The older I get the more I hate civilization. It only knows how to use and get what they need out of somebody. Go forth and fuck every single person you can up. Consider only your feeling and your feeling only. It isn't a good idea to actually really give a shit about somebody.

I don't want to be part of this stupid rat race. That's what it feels like. A stupid rat race that I can't seem to be part of. The younger people are the more they seem to let whims take them where ever they want them to go. And this is why I wish I was not young. I have had way to many whims and far too many encoutners which left me dry and hurt. Am I blaming anybody? Hell no. I brought it on myself. No matter tho I will live my life the way I see fit.

I want to go camping. I want to rock climbing. I want to go to Mexico and see what the big deal is about Mexico. I want to go visit lots of Europe, Middle East, etc. But it takes a little hard work and some patience from me. I don't care if stupid people come my way. They will eventually drop away from me. I will not let them stick to me. They can pretend to have character and be good all they want. I will not live a lie. I will not let my eyes get the better of me.

This rant was brought to you by being fed up. I hate meeting people who have no character straight through. They think they have it but no way.


Ileana